Something weird is going on ....

When I get up in the mornings (and today it was 6.10am, which is late for me) I feel fine. Lots of energy and once the painkillers have kicked in I can even move reasonably well. Then I do my usual routine and about 2 hours later my eyes get heavier and heavier and all I want to do is sleep. Now I cant be tired, can I? I reckon it has something to do with the fact, that when I sit down in the mornings with my coffee and my crochet, I start thinking about the planes and chores I have for the day. This must exhaust me so much or overstretch me so much, that all I want to do is go back to bed and shut the world out. I think my tiredness is psychological and I am trying to think of ways to beat it. Now I know there are things I absolutely HAVE to do, like my tax return for which I have only got 2 days left *arrrrgh* and the write-ups and biography for the exhibitions. I just cant bring myself to do it. My body shuts down! How do I battle this inner pig? Even if I settle down with the work at hand, my eyelids just become so so heavy and I cant concentrate. I drink coffee, but it doesnt wake me up. I concede to having a lie-down, I get up refreshed, but the moment I think of the chores, the same thing happens again. I just want to go to bed. This is so weird and very unlike me. Ok, nobody likes to do those tasks, but usually I have coped with it by at least doing something else. But I cant even do that, cant even enjoy a computer game or handicraft or TV. This might also have something to do with stopping the Citaloprams. I have got a doctors appointment next Wednesday so I will mention it. Still not heard from the various counselling agencies I have rung. But their waiting lists are as long as my arm, so I gather that might take a while anyway. It's been good writing all this down, I dont feel quite as much like I am going mad. But I am still seriously worried ....

I will force myself to go shopping now. At least ONE thing will be done then ....